I guess it's the closure I've been waiting for, for a while. Sure we haven't been together, nor have we maintained a great friendship, but it always still felt like he was mine and someday we'd just, be together. Like we'd taken a detour but we'd still end up on the road we'd mapped out for our lives.
It's ... ended.
I miss him.
I'm going crazy.
I wish he'd just call.
I wish we could be together. I hate being in love with someone that you know you can't be with.
Shoot me in the face.
I really don't know. Should I be happy? I say I'm happy, but I feel like I'm the furthest thing from that emotion.
He said I was lucky, and it pissed me off. Now that I think about it, I would have been lucky.
(5:40:56 PM): Do you think after you kicked me to the curb twice id trust you to EVER stay with me???? we were special and your immaturity fucked with it
Eh. He'll never get it. He ruined our relationship, and he'll never understand how.
This is the story of the boys who loved you
Who love you now and loved you then
Some were sweet, some were cold and snuffed you
Some just laid around in bed
Some had crumbled you straight to your knees
Did it cruel, did it tenderly
Some had crawled their way into your heart
To rend your ventricles apart
This is the story of the boys who loved you
He makes me feel like shit.
He makes me feel inferior.
He says things just to hurt me.
I still want him.
I want picture perfect. I want the happy ending. I want to just be me, and be okay with that. I want friends that hurt because I do. I want family I can talk to. I want everyone to understand everything, without me having to utter a single word.
Staying together was ruining us.
Maybe we have a shot in the future.
Call me when you grow up ... my phone's always on.
